1. |
baby
04:08
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baby
though i can’t feed you from my breast
you can lay your head on my chest
i won’t mind if you’re a boy or girl
i’ll tell you about the world
you’ll never want for anything
even that shining diamond ring
i’ll try to be right there by your side
to shield your weary eyes
i want to watch you grow and find out on your own
a moon amongst the stars
enough to break your tiny heart
mother
i would deny them their own you
is that ever something i should do
i never let go of all my shame
i’m scared they’d be the same
i want to see you dance and find your true romance
a moon amongst the stars enough to make your little
heart despair as it gets too much
like the oil in the air
what have we done?
i know there’ll be times you hate my choice
on the days when you stare into the void
it won’t always be what you had in mind
but i think you’ll be surprised
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2. |
then and never
03:14
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hold for the applause
effect precedes the cause
it always flows both ways
you’re mine, i’m yours
now and always
if you’ll have me
tear yourself in two
every time you choose
matter births itself
in its own past
we’ve all we’ll need
if you’ll join me
ride into the blue
as red consumes the truth
there’s only ever these
old conclusions
now and always
then and never
elsewhere right here
howsoever
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3. |
someone else
03:16
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4. |
that’s enough
03:00
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who’s never thought about it?
all i need’s to think about the vastness of it all
and how completely absurd it all seems
to be a race that knows about themselves
that’s enough to have me at the kitchen draw
running the shower again
there’s a certain class of minds
that look within and feel compelled to idealise their doom
they’re united as one
coiled around the nature of a disaffected truth
that’s enough to have me at the bathroom sink
bracing the back door again
and though there are helping hands
we tell ourselves that others are more worthy of their care
that’s enough to tether me to forevermore
filling the bag up again
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5. |
running on empty
04:10
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there’s two in the bed and the younger one said
i think there’s something missing here
i have to know
before i grow old
he rolled him away, said he’d never say his name
but nothing seems to satisfy the modern mind
those seeds were planted young
i’ll do as you tell me
i want you to share me
cause i’m running on empty
there were three in the bed and the middle one said
i’m feeling suffocated here
the framework’s failed
but thank you for trying
there’s quiet to keep i pretend to be asleep
but nothing seems to satisfy the modern mind
those seeds were doused in rum
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6. |
a mere vessel
04:21
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7. |
don’t forget me
04:10
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i feel my face is hanging looser on my skull
and i feel the earth pull on my heel bones through my soles
and i swear the other day a child stared straight through me
and all my stories and my loved ones
all my values lost to time
and the world was never mine
but come to think of it i knew that this whole time
i feel the nerves are pulling punches one by one
and my father’s hourglass is bulging in its frame
and i swear the other day a child stared straight through me
and struck my labour and my love songs
from the record of our time
and the world was never mine
but come to think of it i don’t think that’d be right
i hope the mind’s distinct from nature’s flesh and bone
but i know that’s something i can never truly know
but i swear if i find out i’ll never waste this daydream
on every memory of a future
that can never come to pass
and the world will cease to be
in every single meaningful capacity
don’t forget me
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8. |
rosewater
03:16
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rosewater
runs from me
a sweet nectar, and i’m the bee
a new stretch-mark
ecstasy
rose syrup, matted hair
mud, ointment, a broken chair
folded inwards
i’m not there
rosewater, leave me be
a dead halo, and dirty knees
a poison apple
from my own tree
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9. |
coastguard
04:19
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i’ll sleep with the fishes
bathed in the silt
in garments of seaweed
and salt on my skin
there’re chains round my ankles that
catch the light from the coastguard
this beach town’s so pretty
i should have sent you a postcard
i swim into setbacks
as strong as the tide
the sail’s in the, the boat’s moored
so i give my tired arms another try
can’t do what i love to do
there’s no heavier weight
than being this competent
at that which i hate
there’s seashells for eyeballs that
catch the light from the coastguard
this beach town’s so pretty
i should have sent you a postcard
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10. |
foundation
03:44
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11. |
untitled (vishnu)
03:50
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all us conscious beings are cells in god’s mind
his brain is all of time
and he’s dreaming about what it’s like to be alive
in every iteration
all at the same time
the endless and the finite
are rendered immaterial
when he opens his eyes
and the fabric fails its shape
disparate little fireflies
roaming in the black night
who speak no common language
and don’t ever try
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12. |
strings
03:13
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13. |
the train
03:43
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a sad-eyed man
with chin in hand
watches me from his seat
the way he looks
straight through his book
he must be so incomplete
i wonder when’s his stop
and where will he get off
and how he lives
and who he goes home to
a mad-eyed girl
whose mind unfurled
can’t sit still in her seat
the hand she’s dealt
and the woe she’s felt
as sure as the houses and trees
i wonder when she’ll break
how bad were her mistakes
and how she’ll die
and will she be alone
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14. |
collection
05:46
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E L L London, UK
E L L is the songwriting/production alias of media composer Elliot Nicklin. His debut album 'Coal' [2020] dealt with
narratives of social isolation, political tribalism and mental health.
His upcoming sophomore LP ‘eloquent void’ is a multi-genre project tracing existential themes through a diverse array of sounds and influences.
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